The Adventure: day three

Tonight I let the wind freely sweep among my hair like summer does. Refreshing.

I don't know if this blog is appropriate public reading. Maybe I should keep a journal privately. Maybes.

But things are going well, mainly 1. and 2. of my day one plan.

I'd like to add a three.

3. Strive to be close to God. Seek him. Action plan: read the Bible whilst getting ready. Get ready for my days spiritually and physically.

 

the adventure: day 1

I want to live with purpose. And let Jesus guide my path. 

Part of my attempt at all this will be being efficient with the things that don't matter. I want to develop habits that make my life better and that allow me to better focus on what matters.

1. Clean room/clean life. Action plan 1: clean room for the length of one song every night. so far so good.
2. Get things done: review to-do list every night for length of one song. Add and cross off as needed.

By timing myself with songs, I keep myself happy and sane.

Resolve

Indecisiveness makes for horrible resolutions. Just sayin'.

Life is an adventure if you only keep moving.

So I resolve to make time for God and friends and myself. Oh yeah, and family too. What does this look like? What should it look like? Does it look different from what I have now? I think so, but I won't know unless I try. And I pray to God that He will fill my life with his spirit. And more faith, I could certainly use that.

So I embark. With memories of the past, even though this is me. This is now.

Matthew 6:33 "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well." NIV

Cute goat at the mini-golf place in Mound.

Summer: birthday 2.0

It's my birthday. Yippeeeee. It's Hannah, 2.0. Two decades. 10 X 2. 4 X 5. Two dimes. Twenty years (young?) I took the day off to celebrate, although I'm not really doing much. Completely fine by me. Birthdays have become a lot more chill for me. I am looking forward to my homemade cappuccino cheesecake and dinner with my family though. None of my friends could hang out though.

Worst thing right now... I forgot how monstrous the mosquitoes are in Minnesota. Seriously swelling in five skin areas,  so horrible. Summertime benefit- listening to Mae. Seriously enriching my auditory canals.

I've been reading Revelation and about Revelation recently. Do I sound foolish when I say I believe things that are written? Perhaps I do. But I don't care. I find the distinction between literal and symbolic perhaps a bit difficult to understand, since people have so many different viewpoints regarding Revelation. It also reminds me of prophecy fulfilled and how that backs up what I believe.

I want to follow God's call. Lately, I've been thinking about how God is integral to every part of my life, including the work that I hope to one day do (design). I know I should find my complete fulfillment in God, but sometimes I struggle with that. I also struggle with feeling spiritually inferior to my peers- like they are doing everything right while I am unworthy of making any spiritual impact. But what do I want? Surely I don't want to feel spiritually superior- what an incorrect, sinful attitude pride is. I just need to live to please God. And try again, even when I get discouraged.

This summer, I struggle with rebuilding connections. To be honest, there are so many people that I would love to be close friends with, but I can't. This is my struggle with modernity, with facebook, with indecision and options. How do I maintain my best friendships? There is a finite amount of time I have for living and loving. It doesn't keep growing, as some of my friends would suggest. The friends who suggest this are the ones who don't care to have me as much in their lives. Am I hurt by others, do I hurt others in how I live in friendship? I just have questions that I never seem to answer. So I really appreciate my closest friends. And I really appreciate my family. And I let things go, because I cannot hold onto relationships any more than I can hold onto any earthly thing.